I always wanted to be a writer when I grew up.
Now that I’m grown up and I’m a writer, I notice I’m not quite the type of writer I always wanted to be.
This leaves me with two possible paths forward. I can continue what I’m doing and wonder what could have been, or I can listen to Kurt’s advice. “You are what you pretend to be,” he said, “so be careful what you pretend.”
My direction, I think, is pretty clear. I’m going to start pretending to be something I’m not. I’m going to start pretending I’m a real writer.